Changes coming

 This is my theme song as of late:

Well, I've been 'fraid of changin'
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
And I'm gettin' older, too

I said good bye to Claire and Jeff yesterday...they are headed to Seattle. Levi left this morning for Kansas....Rob and I will be leaving for California in a bit. We are starting our own new adventure there. Changes are everywhere for our family. It all seems a bit overwhelming. I honestly can't say when we will all be together again in the same place.

Finding oneself in the "empty nest" phase is quite alarming....I have to say. I have been the mother of small children for such a long time, it is how I have identified and defined myself. And all of a sudden they are all adults, leading their own lives. In one word?...SCARY!
As we left Levi this morning at the airport, I said.."oh I forgot to help him figure out which gate to go to..." Kindle said, "Mom....are you kidding...he'll figure it out..."
I know.
It's hard to let go....for Pete's sake he made it through far worse things than the SLC airport!
Then I got in the car and bawled. It's not just Levi...it's all of them! I miss my little chickadees.
How can I leave my Sweet "E" boy and my Swee "D" girl?
What if Mattie needs help cooking something....or what if Kit needs me to help her sew something....? Who's gonna make all the freaking Birthday cakes, for cryin' out loud!?

I know...I know....They will figure it out.
(How do I figure out how to be without them?)

at least I still have the dread pirate....

at least I still have the dread pirate....