An Ensign to the nations....and to me.

This morning I woke and saw the Ensign laying by my bed, begging me to be read. I love it when books do that....so I began. Elder Uchtdorf's article was first: "Hold on a Little Longer".

"Why, elder Uchtdorf, are you speaking directly to me?...Why yes,...yes you are..."

You know how that is when the words just seem to fit everything about your life that you have been thinking and feeling?...that was how it felt. His message of hope and endurance were right on target to my heart. Then I read "The Best is Yet to Be" by elder Holland. Holy Cow! was this a spiritual ambush or what?! Just exactly what I need to hear.

"Look ahead and remember that faith
is always pointed toward the future"

These are words that are perfect for this day when the rain is coming down so hard it's scary, and everything looks grey and foreboding.

Robert Browning wrote:

Grow old along with me!
The best is yet to be,
The last of life, for which the first was made:
Our times are in his hand
Who saith, "A whole I planned,
Youth shows but half; trust God:
see all, nor be afraid!"

And for this old gal...who sometimes gets discouraged at life...I will be looking for sunshine, hoping for a brighter day, and trusting God that what we are doing is part of His plan.

Besides...sometimes when you look back...
you realize what dorks you were then...

BFF

I would like to introduce you to my new best friend. Her name is Bonnie...and she is from England. Rob introduced us when we got here, and then left us alone to mingle and get to know each other. She seemed nice enough...and it's good to have someone to talk to. So last week I thought we would go out together...just us girls. I needed to get me some IKEA, if you know what I mean. I knew Bonnie would know how to get there...so I wasn't really worried.
It started out great...with "go South on Highway 101 for 11 miles...", but then she started saying things like this...

Bonnie:"In 4 hundred feet, turn right, then turn right."

Me: "Wait...how many feet..?.. then 2 rights?"

Bonnie: "Turn right then keep left."

Me: " Well, I can't get over into that lane right now...."

Bonnie: "TURN RIGHT! YOU FOOL...TURN RIGHT!

Me..."just calm down, Bonnie...I'm trying to..."

Bonnie: "....Re-routing."

Me: "Look Bonnie, if you can't be nice I might have to make Dave from Australia my new BFF...I mean c'mon.

Bonnie: "turn Left, then turn right...just do it.

Me(in tears): ok...ok..."

Bonnie: "Researching point of interest.....point of interest does not exist."

Me: " what the....listen here girl friend...are we gonna have a chick fight? 'cause I will take you down!...Are you listening?"

Bonnie: "destination is in 200 feet."

Me: (sweetly)"Thank you, Bonnie."



We are getting along much better now. (but I'm not counting out Dave just yet..)

"Houston...we have a go..."

Dear Utah,

Thank you so much. I will miss you.

This is what I will miss:


1. The people of Ogden and Huntsville. My Angel friends who have made my life wonderful since 1986. I love you all... I want to live next to all of you in Heaven, seriously.

2. My babies.

(still too hard to talk about leaving them.... I love them so.)

3. Living near the prophet...all 4 sessions of General Conference on TV is such a huge blessing.

4. Mountains and deserts all in one state...what's not to love.

5. 24th of July concert at Weber State...no...the whole month of July, I will miss.

6 Did I mention the people....love them...

This is what I will not miss:

1. Construction 24/7

2. Snow until June

3. Snow until June.

I love you Utah.

Dear California,

please be kind.

Thank you,

Neisy

Changes coming

This is my theme song as of late:


I said good bye to Claire and Jeff yesterday...they are headed to Seattle. Levi left this morning for Kansas....Rob and I will be leaving for California in a bit. We are starting our own new adventure there. Changes are everywhere for our family. It all seems a bit overwhelming. I honestly can't say when we will all be together again in the same place.
Finding oneself in the "empty nest" phase is quite alarming....I have to say. I have been the mother of small children for such a long time, it is how I have identified and defined myself. And all of a sudden they are all adults, leading their own lives. In one word?...SCARY!
As we left Levi this morning at the airport, I said.."oh I forgot to help him figure out which gate to go to..." Kindle said, "Mom....are you kidding...he'll figure it out..."
I know.
It's hard to let go....for Pete's sake he made through far worse things than the SLC airport!
Then I got in the car and bawled. It's not just Levi...it's all of them! I miss my little chickadees.
How can I leave my Sweet "E" boy and my Swee "D" girl?
What if Mattie needs help cooking something....or what if Kit needs me to help her sew something....? Who's gonna make all the freaking Birthday cakes, for cryin' out loud!?


I know...I know....They will figure it out.
(How do I figure out how to be without them?)


at least I still have the dread pirate....